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رضي الزاير
April 27th 2011
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Attribute to ?

“Wise who has a question mark stick to his eyes” ~Radi

I am dazzled because I was never disturbed by Secretes before. I blame it on the Saudi education system, for teaching us so much crap and missing the most important subject on earth, philosophy.

Do they fear philosophy because it brings more questions than answers?

I remember school; all of my teachers were mere teachers, most of them will be forgotten for very few of them managed to move anything inside students. They bear knowledge only and no ability to question it or entice students to question it. They more often than not discouraged legitimate questioning. Is this why we have a dumb generation after a dumber generation in Saudi Arabia and the world?

A question has more power than all the knowledge in the world, because the answer of every good question is another question, and because this series of questions teach us the most important phrase, which is “We know nothing” ~Secretes.

There is nothing dumber than taking ready answers for granted. Nothing dumber than to put superstitions as an answer to any question we fail to answer with certainty.

Why is my mood bad today? Because it is your fate.. Or because your stars aren’t aligned well.. Or because a black cat passed in front of you… why do we accept dumb answers to our simple questions?

Dumb answers are definite. You have no way of refuting or accepting. Everything stops after a dumb answer, especially your mind. The most widely accepted dumb answer is: because God decided so.

Why do we teach ourselves to accept dumb answers? Why are we inclined to call those know-it-alls wise?

Those people always make me want to kill myself. They lecture because they think they know, they think they are so knowledgeable and wise because they are mostly older with a loud voice and a charismatic tone. Why do I not have the courage to tell them stop, you think you know but you don’t know?

Is there anything more dangerous than believing? Believing is to accept an answer as it is true. Believing gives immunity to the idea, and it makes it harder to refute in your mind. Why do we trust to give anything immunity from the almighty question mark? Bold is the superpowering of ideas, why would we make an idea a superpower for it to crush and control our other thoughts?
The truth is the only idea that does not die from the beam of doubt. A person cannot call himself a seeker for the truth before controlling this great weapon, and before having the courage to shoot at every idea.

The question mark is worshipped when questioned… No double standard, for it is a weapon that can be used against itself…

Radi Alzayer
23rd of April 2011

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In Justice I Speak

A talk with a friend about God and belief enticed me to write this topic, hoping that written ideas are clearer than spoken. This topic is Justice, more specifically God’s Justice.

Justice is one of those topics that are taking me away from the idea of a supernatural creator because simply I don’t think that things are as crisp as prophets taught us. Islam is simple when it comes to justice, implement God’s laws and your societies will be intact, crime rates will be very low, and you will go to heaven. In short, you will be happy if you implemented God’s laws in your societies and afterlife. However, this is probably too simple for the real world.

To feed the purpose, let’s examine the origins of crime. Criminals were raised with different values from ours. If I were raised the same way Saddam Hussain was raised, wouldn’t I make the same decisions he made? If not, then there is something hereditary, a Criminal Gene. That means Saddam Hussain had little to change in his behavior, he is the result of his society, aka environment, or Genes after all, and he was not free in his actions. If we learned that this is the case, how would he, Saddam, be sentenced to hell or heaven by God if God chose what takes him to either? Given that God created everything, Genes and Environment, and capable of changing them even if we assumed “God created free well”.

Imagine yourself as a king walking with your servants in a forest. While walking around enjoying the sunlight and quiet breeze you noticed that a hand was hanging on top of a well. Somebody is in danger of falling in the well; he is shouting asking for your help that you know you are capable of doing. Instead you decided that you are going to leave him to the test of helping himself by himself; thinking that if he succeeded you will make him the leader of your military, otherwise he will drown to his fate in the well. The question here is: if he died are you responsible? Let’s assume YOU put him in that situation to experience his strength, would you be responsible for his death?

If I was raised in a house that disrespects women, how can I respect women? If I was raised as a idol worshipper, believing that Hobal or Zeus is the truth and nothing else is, how do you want me to see the truth Mohammed or Jesus are delivering? If I was raised a Muslim, how can I see the light of Jesus Christ? If I was raised a Christian, how can I believe in Mohammed’s message?

If I had little to do with my action, belief, and ethical standards how can God judge me? Isn’t he the one who said in Quran “God orders no impossible “is it possible to be what God wants you to be, when he himself created your environment and therefore your every belief, behavior, and ethical standard?.

I took Saddam Hussain as an example but it is true to substitute him with Hitler, Yazeed, Stalin, Moses’ pharaoh, or any so called “Tyrant”.

I don’t rule out the Criminal Gene, however even this possibility would make hell and heaven unfair because we have no control over our Genes. God created our hereditary characteristics, just like he decided our environment and therefore the values we bear. I lean toward the environment rather than the Criminal Gene; however that means that I, you and everybody else is responsible for all criminals in our society. Because we are the society, furthermore we are the strong cycle in the society because of the education and the ability of critical thinking we wear on our faces. Are we punishing criminals because we don’t want to assume responsibility; because we want to blame somebody for OUR mistakes?

The more I think about this the more I question God’s capability for ultimate Justice… Again, I am either so blind that I can see no light, or so enlightened that I cannot believe a lie, the lie of God’s justice.

Radi Alzayer 4/16/2011

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Why do I think Humans are not humans?

Everything I have been reading recently seems to support one idea and one idea only; we, humans, developed, physically, too fast for our neurobiological bodies. It seems, deep inside us, we are still animals or primitive at best.

The first aspect I have to cover is the fact that we fear with statistical illogic. Just compare fear to the following yearly death tolls in the US extracted from CDC. What do you fear the most, Skydiving or obesity? Bungee jumping or that Sheesha you have been smoking? We are so used to fear our ancient causes of death like wild animals, heights, the sea…etc. Humans fail to recognize that our enemies changed as fast as our technological developments. All of our predators were immediate killers; none of them had the same characteristics of diabetes, cancer or HIV which is eating the body small pieces at a time. Therefore, immediate killers scare us more although killers like diabetes are our main enemy in this era.

There is a clear lag between what we fear and what kills us only because we developed too fast. We have been eating for thousands of years but it is only in this age that we experience this unprecedented abundance of food and fats. (Book: the science of fear) Happiness is the second aspect that proves my point. A study mentioned in “Black Swan, by Nassim Talib” suggested that we, humans, are happier getting a small sum of money every period of time than getting a larger amount of money once as a lump sum. For example, we would be happier getting $200,000 riyals every year for 10 years than getting $5,000,000 as one payment. We are programmed to enjoy the recurrence of $200,000 more than the occurrence of $2,000,000 because for thousands of years our sources of have been food, drink, and sex. Those sources can only be enjoyed a small amount at a time. A person will reach a limit of sexual intercourse or food before his/her enjoyment becomes negative, and he/she will like small amount of food periodically better than all the food at one time. This happens because food does not store value, gets rotten, but money does not have this characteristic which is something our neurobiological programming fails to understand.

The third point I want to talk about is the average attitude in Saudi Arabia in driving and queuing. A lot of civilized-educated people are fed up with human’s attitude here but we have to understand that merely 100 years ago we, generally, were closer to a primitive human than civil. It seems every generation is forming its own subgroup due to the huge and fast change of effective factors. Just note that merely 5 years ago, facebook and twitter did not exist and now they are both very integral in today’s youth.

Technological and infrastructural development in Saudi Arabia happened so fast that we have a struggle between civil and primitive behavior. The Saudi society went through so many tearing forces in the last 100 years, which created many struggling sub-societies. None of those tearing forces affected every part of the society; however the current king’s scholarships combined with the strong emergence of social networks and YouTube is the closest chance we have to turn everything primitive into civil because the effect is more nationalized than ever.

Especially that the new scholarship graduates are not forced to embed in the society like the students from king Khaled’s scholarships in the late 70s because there are so many of them. Just a year after the graduation of the first wave, we noticed that a new sub-society is being formed. The difference between this sub-society and others is that it is more educated than other sub-societies. The struggle did not start, yet, between this sub-society and other sub-societies because of the small number and the apparent insignificance of the new sub-societies. However, it is too soon to say that a struggle, therefore dissolution, would not occur as soon as those sub-societies sense the threat.